Negative Thoughts

I have a hidden talent.  Want to know what it is?

Beating myself up.

I am really good at it.

I can get really down on myself.  It happens a lot.  It doesn't take much for me to feel like a complete failure.  Most of the time it can be something really small to get me going.

- Forgetting to throw in laundry,  leaving a kid without sweatpants for gym class.

- Forgetting to thaw the meat I planned to use for dinner.

- Forgetting a birthday.

( Hmm, that's a lot of forgetting....maybe I should take some ginkgo biloba)

Anyhow, once something like this happens, my entire mood can change.  After that, I could take every aspect of my life and tell you how I'm failing at it.  I usually don't speak it out loud, but the conversations that take place between me, myself, and I can get really ugly.

One saving grace that really helps me is Contemporary Christian music.  Every song speaks to me.  Those radio stations are so "positive and uplifting" that you can't help but feel special just because you are a child of God.  

That's it.

I don't have to do anything else to make me special.

Of course, the Bible can be another source to help see me through times like this.  John 3:16 comes to mind, but I'm not too familiar with bible verses due to the fact I'm Catholic.

(that was a joke--sort of).

The point I am trying to make is, even with all the stuff that can make me feel inferior, I am still special, full of worth, and loved.  And so are you.  Yes, YOU!

Remember a few weeks ago I spoke about a personal nudge from God?  That time when a stranger suggested I read the Divine Mercy Chaplet?  Well, guess how many times I've said that prayer since?

Zero. Not one time.

I have visions of God in Heaven throwing His hands up and saying, "Well, I've done all I could do; I give up on this one."

But He doesn't.

And that's good to know.